Difficult life events can gradually erode our self-confidence and self-worth, especially if our roots were already a bit on the weak side to begin with due to a tough childhood.
The recent full moon and lunar eclipse as well as some personal healing I am doing have all brought up issues for me around self-worth. In particular I’ve been experiencing a lot of frustration and pain around never truly learning that it was OK to have my needs met, even in the most basic ways as a child.
This has rippled through and affected every relationship and every area of my life. I can see that now.
I am now looking more closely at how I can ensure I meet my own needs every day.
A lot of people groan and roll their eyes as soon as you start talking ‘psycho-babble’ about how limiting patterns started in childhood. I can understand that.
But consider this for a moment…..you cannot have juicy fruit, beautiful flowers, lush leaves and strong branches on a tree that has a weak or diseased root system.
Having had my life turned upside down during the December 2012 ‘shift’ (more like sh!t) I have spent the last year moving through another ‘dark night of the soul’ and falling, surrendering and collapsing deeply into myself, my pain and my own shadows.
Well it hasn’t been because I wanted to I can assure you, it has been harrowing at times.
It has happened because my soul needed me to fall again, to see more deeply who I really am and how my life had led me away from my true self.
Why had I been led away from my true self?
Because of my weakened root system and unresolved need for love, validation and essential support. This fundamental missing piece had led me to take love wherever I could get it, even if my intuition had alarm bells going off about a person or situation.
I ignored the signs because I longed so deeply to be loved and to have the love I give out reciprocated.
And so now my journey is about learning how to meet my own needs in the world and to again be my own source of love. My spiritual connection on that vertical axis (between heaven and earth) is very strong and I feel the mighty love of Source, however it is in my relationship with others and the world and with myself (the horizontal axis) that I am growing and expanding now.
I am looking more closely at my own weakened roots from an abusive childhood and noticing in new ways how it affects every area of my life and business. I am seeing how a deep sense of self-worth and an ability to self-source is essential for me to thrive. Part of my healing journey right now involves very deep but gentle trauma-release work.
I am also learning how to self nurture rather than be so critical of myself.
We need healthy roots to be able to hold ourselves firm and grounded in the earth.
When our roots are strong we can draw down and drink deep from the light of Source above allowing it to pour down through us into the earth and expand out into the branches of our life. This is how we ‘Ground the Light’ of our true essence and purpose in the world.
In this space and flow of grounding we not only attract abundance to us, we also become a mighty conduit for it to flow naturally and freely through us…
….and at last we can enjoy the fruits of our own beautiful tree.
If you can relate to anything I’ve shared in the above post please do leave a comment below and share your experiences.
Lots of love,
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